Kyunpin Village - Innocent Childhood Life

The Source

Bali 2016

The Source is the original state of mind, 原始點, where all thoughts, feelings, sensations, all mental activities arising from here. Immediate after its arrival, it becomes a phenomenon, an object. Stays awhile and it fades away. That's human life.

Nothing is permanent in this state of mind, it is in flux unceasingly, like waterfall. 

Without mindfulness to see the process as it is, one is very easy to collaborate with the arising thought process and take it as my thought, my feeling, etc. Then you fall into the prison of thought-process, totally in the control of the thoughts and senses. It is very difficult to break through the identification of thoughts within its field of awareness. By meditation, you are able to break this identification. Subject and object, these are the two different processes of mental states. If you can recognise the pure subjective field of awareness — the Source — then you are able to stop clinging to the thought process and free from it. That's the purpose of meditation.

You need to witness it first, before you can dis-identify with it.

The Source, is empty, a sense of spacious, it is also the spiritual centre. To be integrated you must be able to  recognise and remember its ever-present space. The world as what it is - going on and on - but you are the observer of world. The Source is your home, before anything happens, you are already eternally here and now. Nothing changes here, nothing happens now. It is empty as the space in open sky, until a cloud afloat and passing by. Human life is alike the floating cloud, appears in the Source of emptiness, just like bird flies through open sky. 
It is just the phenomenal activity  happening, an object rising and falling. Before that, originally we are empty, then thoughts come, we grasp, relate and give meaning to them. That's is how we form relationship by extending them to the outside world. With strong grasping, we hold them dear as permanent by possessing them, then creating the pseudo entity of I am this, I am that. Gradually things or people changed, and we lost them. Suddenly, we are in deep suffering because we have ignorantly forgotten, originally, we are nothing and empty in the first place. We did not possess them in the beginning, and will never possess them. In the end, nothing to gain, nothing to lose. 

It is a delusion to think you ever possess anything. 
Not even your life!

Let’s say, there was a relationship lasting for 6 months. It was originally a thought movement arising with sensational feelings and emotions. Explicitly, they developed and manifested as a loving relationship, then you clung to this relationship as mine love. Six months later, the karmic drama of the relationship exhausted, everything came to a halt and  back to the original point of life, which was devoid of that relationship. At the Source, it is empty, no one there. 

Sky remains empty after cloud drifting away.

The relationship was just a phenomenon which happening within the period of 6 months. It was only a series of thought processes came with its army of sensations and emotions you interpreted, involved and developed deeply as a loving relationship. It is exactly like a bird has flown through the sky and disappeared. Then the sky is empty again. Before the bird appeared, it was empty, so the bird stayed awhile and gone. 

Everything in life, and inclusive of life itself, they come and go, without exception. 

The only thing stays is the Source, the original point which is empty in the first place. So you have nothing to gain and nothing to lose, even the experience of that relationship has no trace to be found and is absolutely gone. You are back to the square one — emptiness. You are always in balance at that point or centre, but you cling and get involved with the arising impermanent phenomenon to make you think you have 'something' as a person. But this is a delusion because in the beginning you are nothing but a pseudo entity. What is there to feel sad and lost when originally, you have nothing, you are empty. You are just back to your original self -- the Source of emptiness. This insight knowledge shows us the profound wisdom to be applied and learned in our life:

We are nothing. We are not something. 
Emptiness is our nature.

Something is only happening in this life. And life itself is also another phenomenon happening. Both life and something happening to life is out of our control and in flux. There is no one there to control and dictate, because it is empty originally. Human being is just a process, a journey to the earth is to live this life in flux. What else you can retain when everything is in the process of changing? In this process of living you are only entitled to use whatever provided to you - temporary - and you are unable to possess them. Whatever provided to you is not belonging to you. I am the Source which is empty and I cannot possess anything. Everything happening within the Source, devoid of entity of me, I, including life. We do not owe anything to anybody.

The Source is responsible for everything, but there is no one there to claim that.

Life itself has no meaning until you put meaning and define the activities of life, and claim it as my life. That is the beginning of suffering. 

Wake up, I am that I am.